"i have fourgotten" by c.a.m.c.a.

(on misplaced guilt and a post-partum depression)

i have                       four
gotten what people
say about me good bad all spoons stirring coffee

i neglected my plants
i don't plan for dinner

don't we all make it up as we go along
way away

i find myself watching clocks
want
ing 
them to tell me how to feel better a'day
properly responsibly gratefully you 

i time clocks
to see how      fast they run
they're always early from
not where i expect them to be
no term singled out
yet i still four got them

in this self inflicted blackandblue
i wasn't kind i harbored guilt
i[headstrong] told the anchor to leave and not look back

so i watch clocks
although i have fourgotten why i should be kind to 
myself in the first place